Saturday, June 28, 2008
Schzwarweiss
Post No. 16
Author Status: Many things going around my mind now…
Emotions are rushing round my nerves lately, some part of me longing to let go, and yet some still driving hard to push on this internal battle of wits and infatuation. All these years of conditioning, the solitude I’ve came to hate but learned to enjoy leaves me nothing but a cold bitter-hard sociopath, never flinching, never stepping back and always putting on a fake smile filled with no emotion but ambiguous agenda and deceit. A front only for selfish purpose to radiate power and control, respect under duress.
However! Like a priceless gift presented and taken from me four years ago… Yet again Providence granted a brief but warm experience only made me realize the ultimate battle is waged not in the fields of performance and perception, but the very one person you call… “Yourself”.
Had you ever question? what’s with that false front you were putting up? Why lie through those lips with your so-called grandiose ego and flawless expectations? Why strive being perfect when one such as yourself perceive righteous morals and timeless values, but only to commit hypocrisy under soul and breath? How often had you asked your heart when looking into the mirror “Am I Ugly?” instead of parading a sense of self-conceived Greatness… when there is actually... None…
To break free, you have to learn to let go. To comprehend emotion, you have to appreciate beauty. To love someone, you need to love yourself. And through that, would I come out a stronger better person…
Standing Resolute,
Walter Lucerne
Author Status: Many things going around my mind now…
Emotions are rushing round my nerves lately, some part of me longing to let go, and yet some still driving hard to push on this internal battle of wits and infatuation. All these years of conditioning, the solitude I’ve came to hate but learned to enjoy leaves me nothing but a cold bitter-hard sociopath, never flinching, never stepping back and always putting on a fake smile filled with no emotion but ambiguous agenda and deceit. A front only for selfish purpose to radiate power and control, respect under duress.
However! Like a priceless gift presented and taken from me four years ago… Yet again Providence granted a brief but warm experience only made me realize the ultimate battle is waged not in the fields of performance and perception, but the very one person you call… “Yourself”.
Had you ever question? what’s with that false front you were putting up? Why lie through those lips with your so-called grandiose ego and flawless expectations? Why strive being perfect when one such as yourself perceive righteous morals and timeless values, but only to commit hypocrisy under soul and breath? How often had you asked your heart when looking into the mirror “Am I Ugly?” instead of parading a sense of self-conceived Greatness… when there is actually... None…
To break free, you have to learn to let go. To comprehend emotion, you have to appreciate beauty. To love someone, you need to love yourself. And through that, would I come out a stronger better person…
Standing Resolute,
Walter Lucerne
Been listening to music while pondering, this being the best of the time. I'd Include the Lyrics for enjoyment.
( ~ † ~Not That Different~ † ~ )
-Collin Raye-
( ~ † ~Not That Different~ † ~ )
-Collin Raye-
She said we're much too different
We're from two separate worlds
And he admitted she was partly right
But in his heart's defense he told her
What they had in common
Was strong enough to bond them for life
He said look behind your own soul
And the person that you'll see
Just might remind you of me
I laugh, I love, I hope, I try
I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry
And i know you do the same things, too
So we're really not that different, me and you
Now she could hardly argue
With his pure and simple logic
But logic never could convince a heart
She had always dreamed of loving someone more exotic
And he just didn't seem to fit the part
So she searched for greener pastures
But never could forget
What he whispered when she left
I laugh, I love, I hope, I try
I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry
And i know you do the same things, too
So we're really not that different, me and you
Was it time or was it truth
Maybe both lead her back to his door
As her tears fell at his feet
She didn't say "I love you"
What she said meant even more
I laugh, I love, I hope, I try
I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry
And i know you do the same things, too
So we're really not that different
No we are not really that different... me and you...
We're from two separate worlds
And he admitted she was partly right
But in his heart's defense he told her
What they had in common
Was strong enough to bond them for life
He said look behind your own soul
And the person that you'll see
Just might remind you of me
I laugh, I love, I hope, I try
I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry
And i know you do the same things, too
So we're really not that different, me and you
Now she could hardly argue
With his pure and simple logic
But logic never could convince a heart
She had always dreamed of loving someone more exotic
And he just didn't seem to fit the part
So she searched for greener pastures
But never could forget
What he whispered when she left
I laugh, I love, I hope, I try
I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry
And i know you do the same things, too
So we're really not that different, me and you
Was it time or was it truth
Maybe both lead her back to his door
As her tears fell at his feet
She didn't say "I love you"
What she said meant even more
I laugh, I love, I hope, I try
I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry
And i know you do the same things, too
So we're really not that different
No we are not really that different... me and you...
i know that i have loved you ... at 4:21 AM
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
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